I am starting to re-evaluate my life choices right now. I am not sure why I am questioning my life track.
There is just so much to think about right now and sometimes all I want to do is sleep and smoke a joint.
And my birthday is coming up. Twenty-fucking-one.
I think I should build up some walls and just focus on getting through school, no matter how confusing it may be. It's going to be alright. And whats the worst that can happen?
I could flunk, fail and move back home. Square one right? But I know if that happened I'd have the taste of being semi-independent. I'd crave it more. Maybe going to school at home wasn't a bad idea. But I like it here. I wish I could take all the great things about Thunder Bay with me wherever I went along. Therefore I wouldn't be lonely ever, it's weird how someone can be lonely in cities filled with millions. I need some familiarity in my life, and this place is all too strange.
Fuck I have exams in 2 days, when the hell did that happen. I have to get studying.
I'm going to be positive that my gamble at school is going to be good, maybe not well done. But mediocre.

Fingers crossed.
xoxo

I am not sure how to shake this feeling.
I feel like whenever I move somewhere I am leaving unfinished business behind.
Even when I moved home from Edmonton, it was so abrupt. I just dropped everything and came home.
I hate thinking about the past and what you should have done/said. It can hold you back, leaving your mind racing with thoughts of the outcome. I guess some things are meant to be left alone.

Also, check out this riveting movie.
2:37

crap!

Lost my wallet in Tbay, how am I supposed to fly home?
I'm stranded for a while. I do not mind.
Its like I'm on vay-kay. :)

But really I need my wallet.
I am frustrated and content.
Thinking quite a bit. I can't wait till the warm weather shows up. Not sure if i'll be back march break, because this weekend cost me[and my mom] over like 400$.

I hope for my birthday!

xoxo.
I feel like this after the weekend.

I'm not sure if Perez posted this.

I'm in tbay for the long weekend!
No biggie if I didnt see people! It feels awesome to a place to called home, even if it Thunder Bay, Ontario. Proud, I dont know how people can party as well and much as tbay folk.
I am in the company of my good friends and more to come in the am, or pm. Whenever I wake up. Happy Friday the 13th and Valentines Day.
Anyways my tooth hurts. I think?
More notice next time I'm in town.

xoxo

POST SCRIPT

some goooood shit.

It is official. I am losing sleep to the Home&Garden channel. Those design and house hunting shows keep me up until 3am. Even re-runs! What the hell. But they are so good.

I was watching a documentary on weed with Lisa Ling, who is very pretty. It was very interesting! My quest to get prescribed medical marijuana begins!

I have been conducting experiments of marijuana for several years now...trying to determine the effects of its usage. But always seem to forget once consumed!

One of my findings that it causes for great photo opportunities, such as:

The Grammys would have been ten times more awesome if MIA had her baby on stage during her performance in front of 20 million people. Maybe not. And Lil' Wayne played the midwife! Hollering "Hot Wata!"



Holy moly, I want those bags. LV Metallic, gorgeous!


MMMMhmm. Did you hear RuPaul is having a drag-reality-show. I cannot wait to see the cat fights develop on that. Pitting drag QUEENs against one another, what more could you ask for?
Letting the hair-pulling, trash talking commence!

xoxo.

pros/cons

Three things annoying me atm:
1. Math
2. Not having a holder for my pens
3. Not being able to find a dealer

Three things making me happy atm:
1. Aquafina Plus
2. Coffee
3. And this picture!


xoxo

So what?

So Michael Phelps smoked some weed...I don't think that's the issue. How tall is he anyways. I swear hes like a giraffe. Have you ever seen a giraffe run, its like slow motion running.
Hit the bong Phelps only not when in training, or when asshole friends with cameras. Peace out Kelloggs endorsement.

At least it wasn't cocaine. Or heroin. On film.

Oh they scandals if I were an Olympic gold medalist.

xoxo

Narc!....olepsy

I think I may have discovered the cure for sleeplessness. Just think long and hard about a math problem. Soon your brain will become over worked and tired and you'll drift into a blissful slumber, only to dream about funky ass shit.
Speaking of dreams I had two weird ones.
Dream 1[I dreamt I was in Canadian Tire with Kim and we were searching for a broom or something and we ran into Steph, my old Tim Hortons boss and she had her big dog with her. And Steph has this unnoticeable mustache and I couldn't bring myself not to stare at it. So we stole a bunch of candles and walked out with our broom.]
Dream 2[I dreamt Dre went to my school and we were searching for my sweater and she was only at my school because she wanted to be near Tara and I was angry at her because of it.]
Dreams are odd, but when I dream I tend to remember details and some other times I cannot recall them at all.

George Foreman grills are awesome though, I'm sure everyone I've talked to knows how much I've been raving about them. They probably make the most prefect and fast grilled ham/cheese ever.

Ps. since when does Mr.T do infomercials? Badass cred down the drain? Flush.


"Just set it to cook and you're off the hook!" Or chain. A cheap tacky gold one.

Pitying you foos.

xoxo

it was shock!

I was high and this made me laugh.

you little rascal!

I woke up and I could hear my roommate watching The Little Rascals and it made me think of home and how Randy used to watch movies like that before he went to bed. But he would watch the same movie over and over again. I think he's seen Dumb and Dumber over 100 times. That's insane. Oh how I miss the days when our lives weren't complicated with work and such, and all we had to worry about was school.

I was surfing the internet and found this really amazing muralist, she is quite amazing.
Her name is Maya Hayuk. www.mayahayuk.com. I highly recommend supporting artists, even if you just buy a small piece. Art is an amazing part of human culture and most of the time is overlooked. A visual:


A barnstormer is the term that they use. That would be a sweet idea. I would totally commission her to paint my barn. My cows would be living in a trendy barn, all the other ones would be jealous.
Mooyaw!

xoxo

Bumba-clotting

Ahoy readers! (if any)

First blog post, since hardly anyone reads livejournal except for me. I am going to try and update as often as I can remember. What with moving away to school, my life is crazy busy.

I've been here for almost a solid month. I am not so much homesick, as much as missing my friends and my mom more than anything. When she dropped me off and whisked to the airport I almost l broke down. But luckily for me this is not the first time I've moved away from home. When I moved to Edmonton, I was 2 goddamn provinces away for crying out loud. I am adjusting.

And I have come to the conclusion that everyone has the same bag, either in different colors. But still, very unnecessary. I kind of want one. To feel like I fit in.

More to come! If i remember. I think I am going to commit to this one.

youknowyouloveme xoxo roybert